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  "Why?" one of the students asked.

  "Warlocks don't need a reason," Balogh said, with another look at Catarina. "The summons of dark magic is always heeded by the weak and easily tempted."

  Catarina murmured something. Simon found himself hoping it was a curse.

  "There were five Shadowhunters," Balogh continued, "which was more than enough might to take on three warlocks. But the Greater Demon came as a surprise. Even then, right would have triumphed, were it not for the cowardice of the youngest of their party, a Shadowhunter named Tobias Herondale."

  A murmur rippled across the classroom. Every student, Shadowhunter and mundane alike, knew the name Herondale. It was Jace's last name. It was the name of heroes.

  "Yes, yes, you've all heard of the Herondales," Balogh said impatiently. "And perhaps you've heard good things--of William Herondale, for instance, or his son James, or Jonathan Lightwood Herondale today. But even the strongest tree can have a weak branch. Tobias's brother and his wife died noble deaths in battle before the decade was out. For some, that was enough to wipe away the stain on the name Herondale. But no amount of Herondale glory or sacrifice will make us forget what Tobias did--nor should it. Tobias was inexperienced and distracted, on the mission under duress. He had a pregnant wife at home, and labored under the delusion that this should excuse him from his duties. And when the demon launched its attack, Tobias Herondale, may his name be blackened for the rest of time, turned on his heel and ran away." Then Balogh repeated that last, cracking his hand against the desk with each word. "Ran. Away."

  He went on to describe, in gruesome, painful detail, what happened next: How three of the remaining Shadowhunters were slaughtered by the demon--one disemboweled, one burned alive, one doused with acidic blood that dissolved him into dust. How the fourth survived only by the intercession of the warlocks, who returned him--disfigured by demonic burns that would never fade--to his people as a warning to stay away.

  "Of course, we returned in even greater force, and repaid the warlocks tenfold for what they'd done to the villagers. But the far greater crime, that of Tobias Herondale, still called for vengeance."

  "The greater crime? Greater than slaughtering a bunch of Shadowhunters?" Simon said before he could stop himself.

  "Demons and warlocks can't help what they are," Balogh said darkly. "Shadowhunters are held to a higher standard. The deaths of those three men sit squarely on the shoulders of Tobias Herondale. And he would have been punished in kind, had he ever been foolish enough to show his face again. He never did, but debts need repaying. A trial was held in absentia. He was judged guilty, and punishment was carried out."

  "But I thought you said he never came back?" Julie said.

  "Indeed. So the punishment was carried out on his wife, in his stead."

  "His pregnant wife?" Marisol said, looking like she was about to be sick.

  "Sed lex, dura lex," Balogh said. The Latin phrase had been hammered into them from the first day at the Academy, and Simon was coming to hate the sound of it--so often was it used as an excuse for acting like monsters. Balogh steepled his fingers and contemplated the classroom, watching in satisfaction as his message came clear. This was how the Clave treated cowardice on the battlefield; this was justice under the Covenant. "The Law is hard," Balogh translated for the hushed students. "But it is the Law."

  *

  "Choose wisely," Scarsbury warned, watching the students sift through the many pointy options the weapons room had to offer.

  "How are we supposed to choose wisely when you won't even tell us what we're going up against?" Jon complained.

  "You know it's a vampire," Scarsbury said. "You'll learn more when you arrive on site."

  Simon slung a bow over his shoulders and selected a dagger for melee fighting; it seemed the weapon he was least likely to accidentally stab himself with. As the Shadowhunter students Marked themselves with runes of strength and agility and tucked witchlights into their pockets, Simon hooked a slim flashlight to one side of his belt and a portable flamethrower to the other. He touched the Star of David hanging on the same chain as Jordan's pendant around his neck--it wouldn't help much unless this vampire happened to be Jewish, but it made him feel just a little better. Like someone was looking out for him.

  There was an electric charge of anticipation in the air that reminded Simon of being a little kid, preparing to go on a field trip. Of course, a visit to the Bronx Zoo or the sewage treatment center carried with it less chance of disembowelment, and instead of lining up to board a school bus, the students assembled themselves in front of a magical Portal that would transdimensionally carry them thousands of miles in the blink of an eye.

  "You ready for this?" George asked him, grinning. Decked out in full gear with a longsword slung over his shoulder, Simon's roommate looked every inch the warrior.

  For a brief moment, Simon imagined himself saying no. Raising his hand, asking to be excused. Admitting that he didn't know what he was doing here, that every fighting tactic he'd been taught had evaporated from his mind, that he would like to pack up his suitcase, Portal home, and pretend none of this had ever happened.

  "As I'll ever be," he said--and stepped through the Portal.

  From what Simon remembered, traveling by school bus was a filthy, undignified experience, rife with foul smells, spitballs, and the occasional embarrassing bout of motion sickness.

  Traveling by Portal was significantly worse.

  Once he'd regained his balance and his breath, Simon looked around--and gasped. No one had mentioned where they were Portaling to, but Simon recognized the block immediately. He was back in New York City--and not just New York but Brooklyn. Gowanus, to be specific, a thin stretch of industrial parks and warehouses lining a toxic canal that was less than a ten-minute walk from his mother's apartment.

  He was home.

  It was exactly as he'd remembered it--and yet, wholly different. Or maybe it was just that he was wholly different, that after only two months in Idris, he'd forgotten the sounds and smells of modernity: the low, steady hum of electricity and the thick haze of car exhaust, the honking trucks and pigeon crap and piles of garbage that had for sixteen years formed the fabric of his daily life.

  On the other hand, maybe it was because now that he could see through glamours, he could see the mermaids swimming in the Gowanus.

  It was home and not home all at the same time, and Simon felt the same disorientation he had after his summer in the mountains at Camp Ramah, when he'd found himself unable to fall asleep without the sound of cicadas and Jake Grossberg's snoring in the upper bunk. Maybe, he thought, you couldn't know how much going away had changed you until you tried to go home.

  "Listen up, men!" Scarsbury shouted, as the final student came through the Portal. They were assembled in front of an abandoned factory, its walls streaked with graffiti and its windows boarded up tight.

  Marisol cleared her throat, loudly, and Scarsbury sighed. "Listen up, men and women. Inside this building is a vampire who's broken the Covenant and killed several mundanes. Your mission is to track her down, and execute her. And I suggest you do so before sunset."

  "Shouldn't the vampires be allowed to deal with this themselves?" Simon asked. The Codex had made it pretty clear that Downworlders were trusted to police themselves. Simon wondered whether that involved giving alleged rogue vampires a trial before they were executed.

  How did I get here? he wondered--he didn't even believe in the death penalty.

  "Not that it's any of your concern," Scarsbury said, "but her clan has handed her over to us, so that you children can get a little blood on your hands. Think of it as a gift, from the vampires to you."

  Except "it" wasn't an it at all, Simon thought.

  "Sed lex, dura lex," George murmured beside him, with an uneasy look, as if he was trying to convince himself.

  "There's twenty of you and one of her," Scarsbury said, "and in case even those odds are too much for you, experienced Shadowhunter
s will be watching, ready to step in when you screw up. You won't see them, but they'll see you, and ensure that you come to no harm. Probably. And if any of you are tempted to turn tail and run, remember what you've learned. Cowardice has its price."

  *

  When they were standing on the curb in the bright sunlight, the mission had sounded more than a little unsporting. Twenty Shadowhunters in training, all of them armed to the gills; one captured vampire, trapped in the building by steel walls and sunshine.

  But inside the old factory, in the dark, imagining the flicker of motion and the glimmer of fangs behind every shadow, was a different story. The game no longer felt rigged in their favor--it no longer felt like much of a game at all.

  The students split up into pairs, prowling through the darkness. Simon volunteered to guard one of the exits, hoping very much that this would prove similar to those gym class soccer games, where he'd spent hours guarding the goal and only a handful of times had to fend off a well-aimed kick.

  Of course, each of those times, the ball had sailed over his head and into the net, losing the game for his team. But he tried not to think about that.

  Jon Cartwright was stationed at the door beside him, a witchlight stone glowing in his hand. Time passed; they did their best to ignore each other.

  "Too bad you can't use one of these," Jon said finally, holding up the stone. "Or one of these." He tapped the seraph blade hanging from his belt. The students hadn't been taught how to fight with them yet, but several of the Shadowhunter kids had brought their own weapons from home. "Don't worry, hero. If the vamp shows up, I'm here to protect you."

  "Great, I can hide behind your massive ego."

  Jon wheeled on him. "You want to watch yourself, mundane. If you're not careful, you'll . . ." Jon's voice trailed off. He backed up until he was pressed against the wall.

  "I'll what?" Simon prompted him.

  Jon made a noise that sounded suspiciously like a whimper. His hand floundered at his belt, fingers stretching for the seraph blade but coming nowhere near it. His eyes were riveted on a spot just over Simon's shoulder. "Do something!" he squeaked. "She's going to get us!"

  Simon had seen enough horror movies to get the picture. And the picture was enough to make him want to bolt for the door, slip through it into the daylight, and keep running until he was back home, doors locked, safely under the bed, where he'd once hidden from imaginary monsters.

  Instead, slowly, he turned around.

  The girl who melted out of the shadows looked to be about his age. Her brown hair was pulled back into a high ponytail, her glasses were dark pink and horn-rimmed vintage, and her T-shirt featured a bloody, crimson-shirted Star Trek officer and read, LIVE FAST, DIE RED. She was, in other words, exactly Simon's type--except for the fangs glinting in his flashlight beam and the inhuman speed with which she streaked across the room and kicked Jon Cartwright in the head. He crumpled to the ground.

  "And then there were two," the girl said, and smirked.

  It had never occurred to Simon that the vampire would be his age, or at least look it.

  "You want to be careful with that thing, Daylighter," she said. "I hear you're alive again. Presumably you want to keep it that way."

  Simon looked down to realize he had taken the dagger into his hand.

  "You going to let me out of here, or what?" she asked.

  "You can't go out there."

  "No?"

  "Sunshine, remember? Makes vampires go poof?" Simon couldn't believe his voice wasn't shaking. Honestly, he couldn't believe he hadn't peed his pants. He was alone with a vampire. A cute, girl vampire . . . that he was supposed to kill. Somehow.

  "Check your watch, Daylighter."

  "I don't wear a watch," Simon said. "And I'm not a Daylighter anymore."

  She stepped closer to him, close enough to stroke his face. Her finger was cold, her skin as smooth as marble. "Is it true you don't remember?" she said, peering curiously at him. "You don't even remember me?"

  "Did I . . . do I know you?"

  She brushed her fingertips across her lips. "The question is, how well did you know me, Daylighter? I'll never tell."

  Clary and the others had said nothing about Simon having vampire friends, or . . . more-than-friends. Maybe they'd wanted to spare him the details of that part of his life, the part where he'd thirsted for blood and walked in the shadows. Maybe he'd been so embarrassed that he'd never told them.

  Or maybe she was lying.

  Simon hated this, the not knowing. It made him feel like he was walking on quicksand, every unanswered question, every new discovery about his past sucking him farther down into the muck.

  "Let me go, Daylighter," she whispered. "You would never have hurt one of your own."

  He'd read in the Codex that vampires had the ability to mesmerize; he knew he should be guarding himself against it. But her gaze was magnetic. He couldn't look away.

  "I can't do that," he said. "You broke the Law. You killed someone. Many someones."

  "How do you know?"

  "Because . . ." He stopped, realizing how feeble it would sound: because someone told me so.

  She guessed at the answer anyway. "You always do what you're told, Daylighter? You never think for yourself?"

  Simon's hand tightened on the dagger. He'd been so worried about discovering he was a coward, too frightened to fight. But now that he was here, facing the supposed monster, he wasn't afraid--he was reluctant.

  Sed lex, dura lex.

  Except maybe it wasn't so simple; maybe she'd just made a mistake, or someone else had, maybe he'd gotten the wrong information. Maybe she was a cold-blooded killer--but even so, who was he to punish her?

  She angled past him toward the door. Without thinking, Simon moved to block her. His dagger swung up, slicing a dangerous arc through the air and whistling past her ear. She danced backward, laughing as she lunged for him, fingers curled like claws. Simon felt it then, for the first time, the adrenaline surge he'd been promised, the clarity of battle. He stopped thinking in terms of techniques and moves, stopped thinking at all, and simply acted, blocking and ducking her attack, aiming a kick at her ankles to sweep her legs out from under her, slashing the dagger across pale skin, drawing blood, and as his mind kicked into gear again, a step behind his body, he thought, I'm doing it. I'm fighting. I'm winning.

  Until she wrapped a hand around his wrist in an iron grip, flipped him over onto his back as if he were a small child, and straddled him. She'd been playing with him, he realized. Pretending to fight, until she got bored.

  She lowered her face toward his, close enough that he would have felt her breath--if she'd been breathing.

  He remembered, suddenly, how cold he had been, when he was dead. He remembered the stillness in his chest, where his heart no longer beat.

  "I could give it all back to you, Daylighter," she whispered. "Eternal life."

  He remembered the hunger, and the taste of blood.

  "That wasn't life," he said.

  "It wasn't death, either." Her lips were cold on his neck. Everything about her was cold. "I could kill you now, Daylighter. But I'm not going to. I'm not a monster. No matter what they told you."

  "I told you, I'm not a Daylighter anymore." Simon didn't know why he was arguing with her, especially now, but it seemed important to say it out loud, that he was alive, that he was human, that his heart beat again. Especially now.

  "You were a Downworlder once," she said, rising over him. "That will always be a part of you. Even if you forget, they never will."

  Simon was about to argue, again, when a shining whip lashed out of the shadows and wrapped around the girl's neck. It yanked her off her feet and she landed hard, head cracking against the cement floor.

  "Isabelle?" Simon said in confusion, as Isabelle Lightwood charged at the vampire, blade gleaming.

  He'd never before realized what a horrible crime against nature it was that he had lost his memories of Isabelle in action. It was cl
ear that it was her natural state. Isabelle standing still was beautiful; Isabelle leaping through the air, carving death into cold flesh, was unworldly, burning as brightly as her golden whip. She was like a goddess, Simon thought, and then silently corrected himself--she was like an avenging angel, her vengeance swift and deadly. Before he could lever himself off the ground, the vampire girl's throat was split wide open, her undead eyes rolling back in her head, and like that, it was over. She was dust; she was gone.

  "You're welcome." Isabelle extended her hand.

  Simon ignored it, rising to his feet without her help. "Why did you do that?"

  "Um, because she was about to kill you?"

  "No, she wasn't," he said coldly.

  Isabelle gaped at him. "You're not seriously mad at me? For saving your ass?"

  It wasn't until she asked that he realized he was. Angry at her for killing the vampire girl, angry at her for assuming he needed his ass saved and being pretty much right, angry at her for hiding in the dark, waiting to save him, even though he'd made it painfully clear that there couldn't be anything between them anymore. Angry that she was a supernaturally sexy, raven-haired warrior goddess and apparently against all odds still in love with him--and he was apparently going to have to break up with her, again.

  "She didn't want to hurt me. She just wanted to go."

  "And what? I should have let her? Is that what you were planning to do? There are more people in the world than you, Simon. She killed children. She ripped out their throats."

  He couldn't answer. He didn't know what to feel or think. The vampire girl had been a murderer. A cold-blooded murderer, in every sense of the word. But he'd felt a kinship with her as she'd embraced him, a sort of whispering in the back of his mind that said we are lost children together.

  He wasn't sure there was a place in Isabelle's life for someone lost.

  "Simon?" Isabelle was like a tightly coiled spring. He could see how much effort it was taking her just to keep her voice steady, her face free of emotion.

  How can I know that? Simon wondered. Looking at her was like seeing double: one Isabelle a stranger he barely knew, one Isabelle the girl that other, better Simon loved so much he would have sacrificed everything for her. There was a part of him--a part beneath memories, beyond rationality--desperate to close the space between them, to take her in his arms, smooth back her hair, lose himself in her bottomless eyes, her lips, her fierce, protective, overwhelming love.